any friends really?

I am sitting here in a hot and stuffy com lab in school.... feeling depressed over something that happened last week. See.... i planned to meet this great girl ( or so i thought ) the week before and so i canceled all other appointments and begged of training. I had everything planned from what to do down to what gift to get here then at the last moment she tells me she can't make it..... What a disappointment! Well i heard she was visiting her grandparents so i was okay with that since i twas an important family event ( that was what she said ) On the day itself i was surprised to find out she was on messenger. I later learned from her that she didn't go for the ttrip as she was sick.... well naturally i was concerned i mean you must be pretty sick right and wished her a speedy recovery... next i discovered that she went out the very next day to go shopping! So i am left thinking... was there really an event perhaps she just didn't wanna meet up why did she say ok initially then? I asked her similar quesitons but she just WOULdN'T reply! I got pissed and she got pissed.... i just dunno what to think anymore.... someone help me out! Tell me what i should do.... worse is i can't bear to lose this friendship and because of that i ignored my friends in sch for a while so now i discovered they upped and went to join another group....so........ the fraility of friendship really bugs me is there NOONE that is genuine anymore?

A Marine's Christmas

'Twas the night before Christmas, he lived all aloneIn a one-bedroom house made of plaster and stone.I had come down the chimney with presents to giveAnd to see whom in this house did live.As I looked all around a strange sight I did see,No tinsel, no presents, not even a tree.No stockings by the fire, just boots full of sand.On the wall hung pictures of a faraway land.With medals and badges, awards of all kinds,A sobering thought soon came to my mind.For this house was different, unlike any I'd seen.This was the house of a U.S. Marine.I'd heard stories about them, so I had to see more.I walked down the hallway and pushed open the door.And there he lay sleeping. Silent. Alone.Curled up on the floor of his one-bedroom home.He seemed so gentle, his face so serene.Not how I pictured a U.S. Marine.Was this the hero of whom I'd just read?Curled up on his poncho, a floor for his bed?His head was clean shaven, his face weathered tan.I soon understood this was more than a man.For I realized families that I had just seen that nightOwed their lives to these men, so willing to fight.Soon around the nation the children would playAnd grown-ups would celebrate a bright Christmas Day.They enjoyed freedom each day and all yearBecause of Marines like the one lying here.I couldn't help but wonder how many lay aloneOn a cold Christmas Eve in a land far from home.Just the very thought brought a tear to my eye.I dropped to my knees and I started to cry.He must have awakened for I heard a rough voice."Santa, Don't cry. This is my choice.I fight for freedom. I don't ask for more.My life is my God, my Country, my Corps."With that he rolled over, drifted off into sleep.I couldn't control it, I continued to weep.I watched him for hours. So silent. So still.I noticed he shivered from the cold night's chill.So I took off my jacket, the one made of red,To cover this Marine from his toes to his head.Then I put on his tee-shirt of scarlet and gold,With an eagle, globe and anchor emblazoned so bold.Although it barely fit me, I began to swell with pride.For one shining moment, I was the Marine Corps deep inside.I didn't want to leave him, so quiet in the night,This guardian of honor, so willing to fight.But, half asleep, he rolled over, and in a voice clean and pure,Said, "Carry on, Santa, it's Christmas Day - All Secure."One look at my watch and I knew he was right.Merry Christmas, my friend. Semper Fi - and good night

miami

saying hi to all from the sunshiny coast of miami where the beaches are hot and the gals are even hotter! Oh and the juice to shoot up your arm! haha Singapore could take a lesson. Get rid of all them wanna be gangsters and " ah bengs " and party on! If you want to be a gangster don't just act!

myspace

I did a myspace account like about 2 weeks ago! Its kinda good to keep in contact with those peeps out in da West Side. NOt many peeps from homeland added me though. I've been strugglin with a decision man.
If you had ta choose between staying close with love ones and being somebody you might not totally like to be like well in my case a really good boy ( well relatively at any rate ) or being who you are but not being close which would you chosse? I know many people are gonna yell. You yellow ass boy of course be yourself man! For now though i am choosing the former maybe its my chinese side showin thru despite all ma dress sense and American accent and all that crap or maybe thats just the way i am. I fdon't love easliy so i cherish those that i do and those who love me!

antithesis

I recently told a friend. There seems to be an antithesis to everything. In life we see death, In success, failure takes a first stpe and happiness best friend is sorrow. Sadness thats a little bit of what i have been feeling lately and for a reason.....
In a world where as the years go by, murder rates, bombings and rapes seemingly increase whats our response? An increase in the number of sexually explicit shows, more strip clubs to fuel human lust and greed. An increase in national security budget. Should we not take a time to consider things like humility and compassion, words that the Worlds' Religions have enthused for so long? People often ask what their purpose on life is. I have no honest idea. Then people ask what they are best act. Everyones' talents differ but it would seem. Mankinds greatest talent is in destruction.
I leave you with this
" One step forward, one leap back "

Why are men so cool?

WHY MEN ARE SO COOL
Phone Conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
You know stuff about tanks.
A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
You can open all your own jars.
Dry cleaners and hair cutters don't rob you blind.
You can go to the bathroom without a support group.
You don't have to learn to spell a new last name.
You can leave the motel bed unmade.
You can kill your own food.
You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
Wedding plans take care of themselves.
If someone forgets to invite you to something, he or she can still be your >friend.
Your underwear is 10$ for a three-pack.
If you are 34 and single, nobody notices.
Everything on your face stays its original color.
You can quietly enjoy a car ride from the passenger's seat.
Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
You don't have to clean your apartment if the meter reader is coming.
Car mechanics tell you the truth.
You can quietly watch a game with your buddy for hours without ever >thinking: "He must be mad at me."
Same work...more pay.
Gray hair and wrinkles only add character.
Wedding dress - $2,000. Tuxedo rental - 75 bucks.
You don't mooch off other's desserts.
You can drop by to see a friend without having to bring a little gift.
If another guy shows up at the party in the same outfit, you just might >become lifelong friends.
Your pals can be trusted never to trap you with. "So, notice anything different?"
You are not expected to know the names of more than five colors.
You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.
You almost never have strap problems in public.
You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes.
The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades.
You don't have to shave below your neck.
At least a few belches are expected and tolerated.
Your belly usually hides your big hips.
One wallet and one pair of shoes, one color, all seasons.
You can "do" your nails with a pocket knife.
You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.
Christmas shopping can be accomplished for 25 relatives, on December 24th, in 45 minutes.

computer stuck day

Whew five hours in front of the computer is no joke. Especially when it was spent trying to get the timetable that i wanted. Still no complaints because i finally managed to get the timetable that i wanted! I certainly had a lot of help! I guess it just goes to show that if you hang on for just long enough things will go your way. I was about to give up i gotta agree and rearrange my whole timetable to take all the subjects i didn't plan for and am i glad i didn't !
Spent quite a bit of time talking toa friend last night. Was surprised to find out she and another gal graduated already! I guess i always thougtht of them in a school context. Well i am glad for them and it was really nice talking to her. Hope she takes good care!

some candy ass quiz

I did some quizes on quizilla.com and here are the results. I wonder if its true......

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never knows what you're going to come up with next; this creates great excitement and arousal never knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end in a kiss as great as your mystery.

PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking for a relationship. You cannot live without it. Your lover must be passionate and you want that you and your partner melt into each other. She should not try to take the domination . You dont want a relationship without passion, and the sexuality plays a big part. The first moment you meet her is one of the most important. There has to be something between you , you cannot explain. From the first moment on everything must fix. But when this passion disappears you disappear to. For you it is better to leave than to see your love restrained.

PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking for a relationship. You cannot live without it. Your lover must be passionate and you want that you and your partner melt into each other. He/She should not try to take the domination . You dont want a relationship without passion, and the sexuality plays a big part. The first moment you meet him/her is one of the most important. There has to be something between you , you cannot explain. From the first moment on everything must fix. But when this passion disappears you disappear to. For you it is better to leave than to see your love restrained. PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always message me or tell me how I can improve that quiz. Ill sure write back.

stupid subject registration

AHHHHHHHHHhhh! Fed up with the lousy registration protocol of NTU. It takes 3 hours to register for next semester's subjects and counting ( i am still waiting for there to be vacancies)and then i don't even get the time slots that i want! Talk about a test of patience. Well no lousy server is going to get the best of me!
I wonder though what the registration process for the other UNIs are like? Somebody give me some feedback thank you!!!!!!